In lieu of events.

Matagal ko na 'tong na realize. It just took a while for reality to sink in.

Ayoko ng umalis. Hindi dahil ayoko sa US. Hindi dahil ayoko makita ang Nanay ko.

Ayoko umalis kasi..

Madami akong iiwan.

Madami akong mamimiss.

Gusto ko gumraduate sa Masci.

Gusto ko maging III-Calvin.

Masyadong masakit para iwan lahat ng taong minahal ko.

Mahirap diba?







Ayoko na.

Woot.

People are too overly eager for summer. For Pete's sake, it's summer! It comes every year!

I mean, what is there to like about summer?

You're hot. You're sticky and you're sweaty. And your skin burns and you get dark. Like hello, nobody wants that. [Except if you want a tan that is. But I don't. So there.]

It's not that I'm against summer, I just think that people give too much attention to it. It comes every year, that won't change.

And global warming's greatly affecting the heat. Is it just me, or is it getting hotter every year? Crap. This is crap.

I am not a fan of summer. I like cold, rainy days better.

Winter, here I come.

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School is almost over. This is just sad.

I don't want it to be over yet cause that means having to leave everything behind pretty soon. And I don't like it. I'm still in denial about the fact that we have to leave for good and summer is not doing anything to cheer me up.

I wish it was February again. Why? Because I loooove February. Haha.

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There are no classes tomorrow and I am psyched.

DVD marathon! Woot. XD

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I watched "The Lakehouse" today, and it was amazing. I love, love, love, love, love it. I think it might replace "The Notebook" as my all time favorite movie. Haha. I love sappy movies. They make me cry.

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You have to let me, let go of you.

Ack.

:)

Clearance week is killing me. It would be better if they just asked us to take exams for the whole month.

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Wala na ko masulat.

My brain is turning into mush. Summer na. Nakakainis.

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We'll be leaving soon. This is just sad. I wish I could talk to someone. Anlo, I know you would understand but it's hard to reach you. Don't worry though. When my mom permits me, pupunta ako dyan sa Texas. Haha.

Sometimes I wonder if this is the right decision. I don't want to leave but I guess we just have to accept the fact that sooner or later we have to move on and let go of things that we value.

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Anger is what you get when you try to cover up hurt.

Very well said.

Cancer.

I've already accepted the fact that we are going to leave the country. I accepted that. And yet, it still hurts. It's still very sad. And what's sadder?

I have to leave all this people behind and live in a place where I don't seem to belong.

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My mom said that there are a lot of parties in schools there and she thinks that it's mandatory we attend. I told her that I don't like parties. I don't like parties with people I don't know. With people I'm not comfortable with.

She says I need to be outgoing.

I can't Mom.

I'm introverted.

I guess I'm just gonna end up being a loner, won't I?

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"Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you..."

:(

All my life.

We didn't really do anything productive during that practice but I loved every bit of it. It was one of the few bonding moments Pauling has. And since everybody seems to be doing something like this, I will follow suit. (:



II-Pauling. A group of unique people. We were meant to be. Supposed to be.

Ehem. (: In alphabetical order:

• Paul - The annoying know-it-all. I actually used to call him that because his smartness annoys me so much. He's really really good in Science, and he's nice. He's not a backstabber like someone I know.
  
• Jeric - The poltergeist. I love this guy. He is just really nice and puts up with my craziness. He's family!
• Rey - We're not really close, and I've never been real nice to him but, there. [Maldita ako.] Nagpapakopya pa rin siya sa IA. HAHAHAHA. ((:
• Philip - BIBOI!! He's so cute. I love him. He is funny and really nice to be with. Makulet. Sister's twin.
  
• Mark - I hate this guy. Haha. He's my brother but at times he really gets to me. Mayabang kasi. Naiinis ako minsan. Haha.
• Jaycee - Kuya ko to. (: 3 lang silang lalaki na naging super close ko dito. Siya, Mark at Krister. I love them. Kapatid ko sila. ♥
• Jason - We're not close. Pero at times, I feel sorry for him. Wala lang. Peace na tayo Josol. :P
• Erald - I like making fun of him. Hindi siya pikon di katulad nung 3 kong kapatid. Haha.
• Prince - He's my son. And I love him. Ang kulit nito.
• Fermin - That whore. Haha. Joke lang. Lagi kong inaasar tong si Fermin e, pero mabaet to.
• JM - I love this gay, este guy. Siya yung kasama ko nung 1st quarter. (:
• Krister - Pikon to e. GENIUS sa math, sobra. Bad din to. Nang-aaway lagi. :P Haha.
• MJ - Di kami close, feeling close siya. Pero ayos lang. Lagi inaaway ni Roquel. Haha.
• Jayvee - Tabal! Ang galing nito kumanta. Annoying at times though.
• Daniel - Mabaet. Tsaka, makulet din. Haha.
• Roniel - Pinaka magaling sumayaw sa Pauling. I lab him. He's mine.

The girls:

I've never been ostentatiously close with them, pero I love them. I tend to stay with the boys. Boyish e.

• Sherly - Ang haba ng hair nito. Haha. Maganda kasi masyado. Haha. Angaling pa kumanta. Angaling din sa math.
• Ellaine - Makulet, akala mo sa una masungit pero masaya kasama.
• Dhea - Ang Deeyosa na Pauling. Sister ko. Ganda. Abogado din. Haha.
• Dana - Galing kumanta.
• Patricia - Er, hindi kami close e.
• Trisha - Kinukulit ko pag katabi ko. Makulet din yan.
• AKO - Diyosa din. HAHAHAHA. >:) Natawa ako sa sarili ko.
• Geneva - Genius. Leche. Haha. May alam ako sayo... :P
• Noriko - Ohayo! Er, makulet to. Haha.
• Alyssa - Oye! AJ ROSE! Makulet to. Mahilig sa anime.
• Romaisah - Kikay! Haha. Ankulet.
• Keesha - Sister. :P Whatever. Haha. Lab ko to.
• Floriane - MAINGAY. SOBRA. Mahilig sa anime. Haha.
• Edda - Kumakanta siya. Period.
• Arlene - Genius din. Haha.
• Jana - This is my lab. Classmate ko din siya nung 1st year. Magaling na artist. (:

I want to instill all of our smiles, laughters, cries and pain in my mind.

Hindi ko malilimutan ang II-Pauling 06-07. Grabe. Mahal ko kayo. You made my [quite possibly] last year in Masci very memorable. Very memorable indeed.

THANK YOU SA LAHAT!

:*

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Ack. Here are the pictures I promised. Sorry. Konti lang. (:


Muka akong tanga. Hahaha.


Jayceeee~


Roniel is just adorable. Haha.


Dhea and her signature pose. Haha. Watch out for her, she's going to join the Candy Teen model Search.





Hot. ((:


Us + 4. Konti lang kaming pumunta.

I LOVE IT. ♥
Go Pauling. (:

How stupid.

I apparently tear my calf muscles and I can't walk properly. It hurts, it hurts so much. I did this yesterday when I was stretching and then, "BAM!" It hurts so much I can't even stretch out my legs and it looks as if my leg is disfigured. One part is hollow. Nakalubog. It was scary. I had to endure at least 10 minutes without being able to straighten my legs up for fear that it would hurt. And hurt so much, it did.

Meron pa ngang pasa e. So, it might mean that it bled inside. Fun noh?

I am such a klutz. I am so prone to accidents so don't be alarmed. It's just a normal day in this life of mine.

Practice for the dance later and I think I could dance na. It didn't hurt so much like it did yesterday. Yaaay. Haha.

It would be better if you just shot me.

For some stupid reason, I can't access my stupid Cbox. Damn it. I am planning to put up a new one. But we'll see. I can see all of your tags but the area where I'm supposed to write my name and the message is not showing up, so there.

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Exams are finally over. Thank God.

Now all we have to worry about is the stupid clearance. Which I don't really need because they're already saying that I won't enroll for the next school year, so yeah.

I hate clearance week. It's so freaking hectic.

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We're gonna practice tomorrow for Hataw 2 because we want to clear MAPEH. Tomorrow's gonna be so fun. Pictures, I promise.

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I am falling in love with Incubus. Haha.

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I am going to shop for stuff tomorrow. Like that notebook I saw [remember Jana? Yung black and red] It's awesome. That is gonna be my remembrance notebook. I'm gonna let them write in it. And then I am going to bring a white t-shirt and let them put stuff there. And that's the shirt I'm going to wear when we go to the US. I swear.

Nakakahiya nga lang, muka akong squatter. Pero ayos lang. Pakapalan na lang. HAHA. Kaya ko to!!

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This is my newest picture and I love it. I want to be a Japanese doll. Er, I wanna look like one. Plano ko bago ako pumunta ko sa US, paparebond uli ako tapos bangs sa harap na super straight.



See? It's love I tell you. ♥

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Nagpapakarebelde na ko. I might as well. Malapit naman na kami umalis.

I'm planning to add 3 piercings on my right ear.

Sino gusto sumama?

campaign for real beauty.

I just love this day. I'm having too much fun.

That's bad. Really, really bad.

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Exams will be over tomorrow.

Freedom at last. :P

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Oh, and can someone lend me money? I need to buy that DVD now. HAHAHA.

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Project Runway is love. I love this guy. I wish he didn't have to leave so soon.


He [She?] is Malan. And he is inspiring.

Teka, magtatagalog na ko. Ang hirap e.

Ganito kasi yun... Nung bata daw siya, meron siyang notebook kung saan nagsketch siya ng mga damit. Tapos pinakita niya sa Mom niya, pagkatapos ay binato lang nung Mom niya. She told him,

"You would never amount to anything."

So sad. He would prove to them that he would be someone. Kaya lang, natanggal agad siya. Grr. Angela, you should've been that person. Not Malan.

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Grabe. Naaadik nako sa "THE OC". I didn't watch it before because I thought it was one of those "superficial" shows. Wala lang. :P

Sabi ni Summer...

"I love you this much. And I want to spend today with you. And the next year. And whatever comes after that."

AAAAHHHH.

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I am insane.

cause of death: hunger

Exams are killing me.

Isn't it bad enough that we have to study it once, and now we have to learn it all over again?

This sucks.

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I badly have management issues. I plan and then I don't do it at all.

I've been planning [for weeks] to actually watch Princess Hours and see what all the hype is about. Pero until now, I haven't watched it.

I've been planning to buy a DVD of Desperate Housewives, hanggang ngayon wala pa. [Let's blame this one on cash, or lack thereof.]

I've been planning to tell him for weeks now. I still can't do it. I'm scared.

Snaps for me, for being such a procrastinator. Ack.

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I am seriously going to die. I am so hungry.

I actually planned to go out of the house to buy food but rather, I'm in front of the computer... go figure.

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Ang corny ng Tabulas. [Peace!]

You actually have to host the picture first before you can upload it?!

Too much hassle.

Gah.

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FOOD.I.WANT.FOOD.damnit.

X_X

I've had it with this blog leave, so from now on... I am officially back! HAHA. I missed this blog. And besides I have lots of time now that summer break is near. But before that, I still have to worry about the exams we have. Which is stupid really. I hate exams.

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I am going to be so sad when we leave. There are lots of things I still wanna do and there's just not much time. Grr.

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One of the guards told me...

"Tima, ma mimiss ka namin pag umalis ka na."

Aww. I didn't know I was valued that much. It made my heart smile and it made me walk home in tears. Naluluha ako. And I hate that I can't do anything about it.

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I stupidly erased my phonebook. Don't ask how. I'm so stupid at times.

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Yet I fell hard for your imperfections.

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I'm falling, deeper into you.

annoyed like hell.

Susuwayin ko muna ang blog leave ko para isulat to. I am annoyed. And an annoyed Fatima, is a bad Fatima.

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Hindi niyo ba napapansin kung paano nagiging useless ang gobyerno pag hindi eleksyon. Kanina, napanood ko sa news na magpapatayo na naman ng paaralan ang GMA foundation. Aba, talo pa ang local government ah. E paano kaya kung puro foundations na lang at wala ng gobyerno.

Foundations sort of defeat the purpose of a government.

Ngayon ka magyabang Gloria.

Ang galing mo kasi e.

[This article is not meant to criticize the way the government is running the country... rather it is merely a simple way of opening our eyes with the reality that is going on around us. Please lang, vote wisely. Put people in the government which are really worth it. Don’t just think of yourselves; rather think about the future of our country and its citizens.]

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Aah, that felt refreshing. Now back to my blog leave.