give me a reason.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I wanted to be a doctor. I always did. Why? Because I wanted to help people in remote places and bring them food and medicine and clean drinking water.

And then suddenly, nurses became in demand in foreign countries. You can also have a nice salary. So they wanted me to become a nurse.

And then I thought, I'm going to be a nurse for all the wrong reasons. Whatever happened to the saving lives and people thing? My reason for being a nurse is to earn a good salary. But what about the dream I had where I get to treat people for the sake of treating them? Isn't that the moral thing to do?

I'm going to be a doctor but not after I become a nurse. And I'm doing it because I want to help and make a difference.

I'm going to do it for myself, for my self-fulfillment and not for other reasons people want.

Gagradweyt din ako.

Wait and see. :D

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Ang drama no? Pero I was getting tired of people pressuring me to be a nurse para daw magkapera. It's too much.

hey. :D

Went shopping last Wednesday sa Fashion Show mall. Heaven for fashionistas. Too bad I can't buy anything decent because everything there is so ridiculously expensive. $93 for a body bag? No way man. BUT!! I found Hot Topic. Hell-o. Heaven. XD Haha.

Anyways, hindi na daw ako mag aaral sa A-Tech because:

1. Enrolment was last January.
2. If I do enrol, the only elective class has something to do with computers and they don't want me studying it because apparently, it is useless for me since I'm going to medical school.

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Season 3 na ng House dito. Season Finale na! Grr. Di ko man lang napanood yung ibang episodes. Tapos wala pang Veronica Mars dito.

ANTM marathons every Sunday though. Last Sunday, Season 1.

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My lola's going to Europe for a month so we'll have the house to ourselves. Yes!!! >:]] We're moving out on July 1 sa apartment namin. $800+ a month. Whew. So much money which could be spent on buying books instead. Hahahaha.

Sa Spring Valley Highschool ako mag aaral. Is it me or may book na ganun yung title? Ah. Sweet Valley High pala. It was close though. Haha.

so.

We're currently living in my lola's house here in Las Vegas and I don't think she likes it one bit. Sometimes I can see flashes of annoyance on her face. Or it might be just my overproductive imagination. Whatever.

We're still looking for some place to live so we're saving our money. Right. I keep spending dollars like there's no tomorrow. I think Ate Laurene is right, waste money on good books. There's nothing better to do here honestly. I'm so freaking bored. Good thing I do chores or else I might've died of boredom, though I've read that it is physically impossible to die due to boredom but whatever.

My brother's waiting for me to do the dishes so I have to go. Honestly, what would they do without me? ;)

HAHAHAHAHA.

Live from Vegas.

Hi guys. I've been busy these past few days. Right.

Mag aaral daw ako sa Magnet School. Basically, para din syang MaSci. And I'm scared. Pag nag 3rdyear agad ako feeling ko hindi ako makaka cope so plano kong mag 1st year uli.

Walang YM yung pc ng auntie ko. Leche.

Ate Lau, next time ko nalang gagawin yung tag ok?

Live from Paradise.

Hi. It's Sunday here at about 6.30 pm. I'm blogging from a friend's house because I'm too shy to borrow my lola's computer where we're staying so there.

ANG LAMIG!!! HAHA.

I'm freezing my butt off here. But the sunlight's really hot. I am currently enjoying my stay here but I am incredibly bored. There's nothing to do back at home.

I have loads to tell you but I don't know where to start so I'll end this post right about now. :D

X(

I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW!!!

NASIRA FLASH DRIVE KO!!!

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCK.

XC

Ngayon pa kung kailan kami aalis. Imagine hundreds of pictures and files lost in a heartbeat. I didn't know what I did wrong. Maayos ko naman tinatanggal sa PC.

MADAMING IMPORTANT NA FILES DUN!!!!

LECHE.

I'm pissed. Stay away from me.

So what?

I finally told my mom what happened and I am keeping my lips shut about it. Only a few people know about what happened. Okay, my entire class and a few trusted people. But the point is, I don't wanna talk about it because it makes me feel stupid and mad. I may not look like it that day, but I was really mad. I just didn't show it because I didn't want people freaking out when I unleash my wrath.

Anyways, I am up typing this in my computer with no internet connection so I'll just wait till I can post this. (:

Things you should know about me:

I don't know how many yet, but I'll try to keep count.

1. I hate it when people keep tapping me on the shoulder. It's annoying.
2. My younger brother annoys the hell out of me.
3. Now that I mention it, so does my older brother, father, mother and cousins. Everybody annoys me.
4. I am not gullible. I'm trusting. Sue me.
5. I can't eat when my spoon and fork is not properly matched. It annoys me. [I am using the word annoy very much aren't I?]
6. I can't use the computer when there are people watching me use the computer, because I feel violated and I feel like I don't have privacy.
7. I used to hate The OC and One Tree Hill because I thought it was one of those superficial shows, like... Laguna Beach. I hate Laguna Beach.
8. I say the words bitch, slut, whore, ho, tramp and gay a lot.
9. When I sleep, I turn the aircon to its maximum capacity and then bundle up in a thick comforter.
10. I like sappy movies like The Notebook, The Lakehouse, Serendipity, A Walk to Remember and The Prince and Me.
11. I absolutely adore Julia Stiles, Rachel McAdams, Kate Beckinsale, Sandra Bullock, Kristen Bell, Rachel Bilson, Sophia Bush, Gwen Stefani, Tyra Banks, Heidi Klum, Marge Simpson, and Jennifer Morrison and Lucy Liu and Kirsten Dunst and Keira Knightley and Natalie Portman and Audrey Hepburn and Naomi Watts and Angelina Jolie and Kate Bosworth and Marilyn Monroe.
12. I love ANTM, Project Runway, Veronica Mars, MadTV, Friends, The Simpsons, House MD, American Idol, That 70's Show, Desperate Housewives, Scrubs, The Nanny, Search for the Next Doll, and Meteor Garden.
13. I like looking at myself in the mirror.
14. I have an electric toothbrush.. which is pink.
15. I am obsessed with my hair.
16. I have this weird habit of spelling words out in my head in alternating caps.
17. I tried to be a vegetarian but failed spectacularly.
18. I have a flip-flop which says "Havana" instead of Havaianas. It's fake.
19. I can't afford Havaianas and neither do I want to.
20. I love books.
21. I think Paulo Coelho should be proclaimed a national hero. Just because I want to.
22. I want to form my own band with me as the vocalist. [Dream on, bitch.]
23. I hate the new Friendster. Before it used to be so simple and now.. Ack.
24. I am considering shutting down all my online accounts. [Friendster, Myspace, Deviantart, Photobucket, Xanga and Blogspot]
25. I like Britney Spears. [So what?] and.. *shudders* Avril Lavigne.
26. I might be gay.
27. I hate my bangs. Because I cut it and now it won't grow back. It used to be this long --> [picture]and now it sucks.
28. My super straight hair is actually, [yup, you guessed it] rebonded. And now it's wavy again. And I don't want to have it rebonded anymore.
29. I like teasing people but I am a sore loser.
30. I use Miami Heat when I play basketball in our PSP, and I compete with the lowest teams and I still end up losing.
31. I think I should get gastric bypass to lose weight.
32. I laugh a lot and I laugh at the simplest things. One night my brother was talking to me. It went like this.
HIM: Knock, knockME: Who's there?HIM: Nobody.ME: Ok.
HIM: Knock, knockME :Come in.
What?! I find it funny. Haha.
33. I hate summer because it's boring. And hot. And boring. And did I mention, hot?
34. I don't have a sport because I am lazy.
35. I am lazy.
36. I like to think I can play the guitar.
37. I like to think I can play the piano.
38. I really play the lyre.
39. I like Emily The Strange because she's, well.. strange.
40. My dream guitar is an Emily The Strange Electric Guitar because it's cute. --> [picture]
41. I like the Harry Potter series.
42. I think Mark James is annoying. [HAHAHAHA. >:)]
43. I had my bangs because I wanted to look emo-ish which failed marvelously.
44. I love gays.
45. I don't like to eat sinigang at nilagang baka. But I eat corned beef, beef steak and other food with beef except nilaga and sinigang. Go figure.
46. I like broccoli.
47. Before, I can't drink pills/tablet medicines. When I do, I end up drinking all the water and the medicine gets left behind. Maybe I was subconsciously scared.
48. I am a bit boyish but I can be really maarte at times.
49. My 2nd year barkada are all boys. Almost. Jana, Dee and Keesha are girls. But the boys outnumber the girls.
50. I can't draw.
51. I won an award for an arts piece and it was a mixed media collage. It was from the Kids at Art Workshop.
52. I currently have 21 medals and not counting. Di na nadadagdagan kasi.. wala na.
53. I have 30 My Chemical Romance songs in my computer and I've listened to about... 10 of them.
54. When I'm only supposed to drink one tablet of medicine... I drink 2. So it's no wonder if someday I'm going to be overdosed.
55. I USED to cut myself.
56. I love the taste of blood. >:]
57. I'm flat-footed. I trip/fall even when the ground is perfectly flat.
58. I can stay in front of the computer for hours.
59. I used to stay up until 3 am so I can chat. :]]
60. I won't drink because someone told me not to. Not my dad, nor my mom. Sabi niya kasi, kapag kasama ko lang daw siya tsaka ako pwede uminom. Haha.
61. I put toothpaste on my pimples. Haha.

Wala na kong maisip. I'll update this.

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Only 3 more days till we go. Tanggap ko ng aalis kami. I can't do anything else but accept it. I've been in denial for so long I think it's high time I've learned how to accept things. I mean, nothing's gonna change. I just have to face it and pretend to be great even when I'm not.

And that would be good enough for people.