just lose it.

I. can't. fucking. breathe.

Fuckitty fuck.

P.S. Sorry for the profanity but I can't express how I feel right now because my chest is constricting. Fuck.

hah.

As it turns out, I am officially a walking disaster. Just this day, I broke my friend's hair mousse stuff and I stepped on my classmate's fingers.

Now wasn't that fun?

No classes tomorrow because of the super typhoon which is not at all fun. I'm scared.

Picture. XD

How I long to be.

I long for a place where every thing that is ruined is not blamed on me.

I long to be in a place where people don't give an F about what I say, about what I do.

I long to be in a time when we don't seem so wrong anymore. =c

ADHD

Symptoms for ADHD

Inattention

1. Often does not give close attention to details or makes careless mistakes in schoolwork, work, or other activities.
   
2. Often has trouble keeping attention on tasks or play activities.
   
3. Often does not seem to listen when spoken to directly.
   
4. Often does not follow instructions and fails to finish schoolwork, chores, or duties in the workplace (not due to oppositional behavior or failure to understand instructions).
   
5. Often has trouble organizing activities.
   
6. Often avoids, dislikes, or doesn't want to do things that take a lot of mental effort for a long period of time (such as schoolwork or homework).
   
7. Often loses things needed for tasks and activities (e.g. toys, school assignments, pencils, books, or tools).
   
8. Is often easily distracted.
   
9. Is often forgetful in daily activities.

Sounds familiar? I think I have it. Craaap.

tsk.

It's amazing how people can change in just a matter of months. I'm not talking about myself so leave me alone.

Anyways, I know these two [different] girls. They used to live here in the Philippines and they migrated there about a year ago. They live separately. Basta, they're two different people that by some twisted turn of fate, both changed dramatically. They went from this two very simple girls to two extremely vain/conceited people. I'm vain too but not in that sense. Okay, so maybe there's nothing wrong with that but I feel when I see their pictures that I don't know them anymore. Which is sad when you think about it.

Man, I grew up with these two people. How saddening is that?

I miss both of them. I miss the old them. =c

to make it love me.

So far, my grades didn't turn out as disappointing as I thought it would be. In fact, if not for those two grades that have declined, I would have almost loved the whole world again. Almost. I love my grades but apparently they don't love me cause they won't do anything to increase. How funny is that. I'm blaming not myself but my grades when you think about it, it did nothing at all.

Scratch that. That didn't make sense at all.

Join me as I wallow in self-pity. *rawr*

you gotta love it.

This. Is. Love.

[link]

Oh.My.God.

That was so freakin awesome!! I can't wait for the next movie. Draco Malfoy, I freakin miss you!! HAHA.

woot.

New layout.
I LOVE IT.
♥

One hell of a week.

The week has finally ended. It was a very long week. A very looooong week. And knowing you, you can't possibly bear how boring this post will be. I know I can't.But seeing as I don't want you lot to suffer. Here's a breakdown of what happened.

• Monday was exhausting. I had a really huge headache. Fucker that.
• Tuesday was spent listening to boring hours of math. Take 6 hours. Wow.
• Wednesday, forget wednesday. Boring.
• Thursday, ditto thursday.
• Friday, apparently "naipit yung ugat" on my foot. And you can't possibly fathom how much it was hurting when I walked. My classmate asked me, "Fatima, on a scale of 1-10, how much does it hurt?" I answered, "8." Woah. It hurts a freakin lot.

Now tell me I don't have a high threshold for pain. Take that. ♥

tsk.

♥ Aww, bite me.

Why bother.

Why bother with geometry? I mean, other than it's a useless branch of math, in a million years we're all gonna be annihilated by a giant blackhole anyways.

Tsk.

*

On the other hand, I am terribly sick and I don't wanna go to this training crap. But I have to. I already freakin missed a session. Mind you, this may lead to a lot more complications. Baka mas lalo akong hindi makapasok bukas. Woohoo.

dilemma.

I tried distancing myself from you. I didn't mean to do it but I thought it was the only way to forget. I was wrong. =c

I miss you.

Choices and chances. :(

I went to my previous school today. It was fun. Met my old friends and didn't really get to know new ones. Sorry. It seems like they're pissed off at me. Why? I don't freakin know. They're weird. I was at that school for 7 years, tapos ganun lang. Nako...

Talked to a lot of people.

Especially talked to this one person.

He asked me some things I would rather not talk about.

"Did you ever love me?" was the inevitable question thrown at my face.

I thought about it.

Contemplated. Though about the things that have happened. I realized...

"Yes. I did." =c

THAT wasn't fun at ALL.